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Another Story
After dinner, we’re drinking scotch at
the kitchen table.
2018 Ellen Bass Ellen Bass’s most recent book is Like a Beggar (Copper Canyon Press, 2014). Her poems appear frequently in The New Yorker and The American Poetry Review. A Chancellor of the Academy of American Poets, she teaches in the MFA program at Pacific University.
If It was in a house I'd never been to, a drug I don't remember. His woman, my man— and others—likewise occupied. We'd come for that purpose. I took him the way wind takes— on its way someplace else. Though we worked in the same South End brownstone we'd never had a conversation. Nor did we then when I eased down on him, slid onto his stalk that was waiting like a person for a bus. When I heard he'd killed himself of course I saw us, back then, on the living room rug. I'm suspended above him, propped on my gorgeous arms. His eyes are the blue of oceans with no land in sight. What would have happened if I'd gathered up the loose pieces of him, like the change fallen from our pockets, like the clothes strewn around the room? What would have happened if I'd gathered those clothes and held them up for him as though he were weak from illness— his shorts, first one leg then the other; jeans,
step, step, as I would do later with my own children, the T-shirt guided down, head crowning. Then each arm in a sleeve, their weight released, they'd hang like the still warm bodies of game. The socks I could have put on easily, stretching each one and slipping it over the large animals of his feet. Then zipping the jacket closed like a scar. Would it have changed anything if I'd led him outside and we'd walked through the city, gloved hands in our pockets, and told each other everything— the light snow falling, light from the street lamps, the amber of weak tea, the rose white of the sky? -by Ellen Bass
from
Mules of Love (BOA,
2002)
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