Salvatore Buttaci USA
Salvatore Buttaci is a retired English teacher and writing
instructor who was awarded the Cyber-wit Poetry Award. His poems,
stories, articles, and letters have appeared widely in publications
that include New York
Times, U. S. A. Today, The Writer, Writer’s Digest, Christian
Science Monitor, www.poetrymagazine.com, The National
Enquirer, and Cats
Magazine. THE PHOBIA SOCIETY I want to write a letter to the Phobia Society of America but I'm afraid. That same old cold sweat, the agony of pushing myself beyond the usual "Dear Phobic Society" frightens me and though I want so much to write that letter, I'm afraid. And I would have so much to tell those Phobia pholks: those selfrighteous, Sanerthanthou hypocrites, who sit in judgment casting stones at their members who are so afraid. I would write but then visions of my letter buried in a postman's dark brown, musty leather sack leaves me claustrophobic, not to mention that the sack is on the shoulder of a stranger who whizzes up up up up up elevators to the 500th floor to where The Phobia Society of America has its office very high above the crowded New York City. So I'm afraid. Somebody inside me says, "What the hell is with you, Man? Reach out and touch someone! Get that fear out of here!" And just as I take heart to act, somebody else inside me says, "Easy for you to say. Talk is cheap. Try acting out, Tough Guy." I'm in conflict. I'm afraid. A letter to the Phobia Pholks means they will learn my name, know where I live, and they will reply! "You must confront all the dilemmas in your miserably cowering life," they will write. "Your nights are supposed to be dark. Elevators are supposed to go up up up. Crowds happen naturally when more than a few people stand together. They can't hurt you. Hey, Wimp, get a grip!" I'm afraid they will want me to write about my life, bombard me with platitudes like "You have nothing to fear but fear itself," and all the time they're thinking: "What makes you spineless wonders tick?" Sometimes in the night I dream an unreasonable facsimile of myself sits tall at a banker's desk. Pen in steady hand, I write that letter, offhandedly joke about how nobody but nobody who climbs to the top of this big bank could ever even remotely know Fear, except the kind he elicits in the pathetic little tellers who fear one more year's no raise.
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